Thursday, February 28, 2008
To work or not to work that is the question
I have been considering, for the past 6 months quitting my job and it has really reached a climax this past month. My employer has made changes in just about every area of my work these last 6 months but I still felt I had the independence to be a nurse and make judgment calls based on what the patient told me. Another easier way to say that is- I still felt I had nursing judgment. Example: Being a professional RN I can make the judgment whether to call a patient's doctor or not. It is what makes nursing unique in that we aren't just robots that call the doctor simply because a patient says keys words or reports certain symptom but we as nurses can put that in the context in which it is said and make that judgment.
With that all said, that freedom I had as a nurse was taken away about 2 weeks ago. A HUGE policy change was made from management and a meeting was called to tell the nurses on how to follow that change. In my opinion, it's never good, when the director of our department starts the meeting with an opening statement " we are not taking away nursing judgment but ...." and then goes on to explain just exactly how that nursing judgment will be taken away and how this is how it is....
This change has made me want to quit even more but I can't seem to. My husband totally supports and encourages my decision to quit and financially we would make it without me working but I have had endless sleepless nights coming to the decision of quitting and I couldn't figure out why. I was thinking/ praying about this when I had a thought that part of my identity as a person has been in the fact that I am 'educated' and am a registered nurse. Not in a prideful way, but just that is part of who I am (or who I think I am) and quitting would leave me identitiless ( if that is a word) in that part of my person. I have always worked since I graduated from nursing school 6 years ago and it's a bit scary to think that I will be out of this field and probably won't return for a good 5 years. That's scary but I know I would really be unhappy if I continue to work at this job in which basically I am a robot.
Even with all this said on the positive side of quitting, I'm still struggling with putting in my 2 week notice....
Posted by Erica at 3:02 PM